Cooling Water

I am struggling to cross the finish line to a race that I've been runing for four years. I see the ribbon, yet take a detour when there is no need to. i am a writer. what's wrong with me?why can't i send out this book proposal? why am i holding myself back? what is God saying to me? keep running or take a drink of my cooling water?

I am so close to finishing this race that I see my book cover. I see my booksignings. I see what the end's gon' be. But I'm not there yet. I'm chasing my past dissappointments. I'm gasping for air...