40 DAYS OF WRITING TO GOD: Lent 2012
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and seated at the right hand of the throne of God.
Today was a day. When I was a child every day was a new adventure. The days didn’t last long enough. I had no cares in the world unless my brother or my best friends didn’t want to play with me.
But at a brand new 38 today I found myself not wanting to get out of bed. Tired before the day begun. Not filled with the fight I had yesterday. I needed a little more sunshine. God this day was hard for me.
As the day has turned to night, I became disappointed that I didn’t complete the many tasks I had planned for me. There are so many things I have to do. People are counting on me. Then I remembered why I loved childhood so much. Although I had plans, I didn’t knock myself for not trying. I believed I had another day. I believed that what happened in that day was enough and the best thing ever. If I couldn’t play with my friends that day, I could tomorrow.
Perhaps because I’m an adult and I live with serious health challenges, I can’t count on tomorrow working out for me. I don’t if you will give me tomorrow.
Reflecting on my Daily Scripture for this second day of advent I am reminded to lay down my burdens, even those I inflict on myself…even my fears about the future.
This is hard for me, so I’m clinging to you tonight. Hold me.