Writing to God Day 3: Tribute

 

40 DAYS OF WRITING TO GOD: Lent 2012

John 17:9-19

I pray for them. I am not praying for the world, but for those you have given me, for they are yours.¹⁰ All I have is yours, and all you have is mine. And glory has come to me through them. ¹¹ I will remain in the world no longer, but they are still in the world, and I am coming to you. Holy Father, protect them by the power of^[a] your name, the name you gave me, so that they may be one as we are one. ¹² While I was with them, I protected them and kept them safe by^[b] that name you gave me. None has been lost except the one doomed to destruction so that Scripture would be fulfilled.

When I read this scripture earlier today it made me cry, Lord. I’ve lost so many wonderful people in my life this past year. I’m still not over losing Maggie and I’m still in shock of Suzette’s death. It doesn’t make since, but I still feel sad about Whitney Houston. I didn’t know her personally. And then this morning I learned that another friend had gone on to be with You.

Natasha Munson.

That news hurt, because I’m still fighting battles against the disease that took her HOME. And I don’t know why I’m here and why she isn’t.

I’m thankful that I am here to see my daughter another day. I’m not so sure if anyone cares to read another book I write, whose life would be affected if I never wrote another word?Mom must have felt my pity, because she made her special deep dish pizza pie to make me feel better. Yet, I’m still weary. Probably more than yesterday. I dislike myself for sounding like a whining baby when so much work has yet to be done, when good people have gone and I know they had great plans to accomplish much.

So I reread these words Christ said to You, as he prepared for his death gave me a measure of peace with these losses. All is not lost. They are with you and I am with you. We are One. Perhaps I can carry on for them.  My spirit knows this. My spirit knows this. My spirit knows…